The Good Life

I've watched my dreams all fade away
And blister in the sun
Everything I've ever had is unraveled and undone
I've sat upon a worthless stack
Of my ambitious plans
The people that I've loved the most
Have turned their backs and ran

This is the good life
I've lost everything
I could ever want
And ever dream of
This is the good life
I found everything
I could ever need
Here in Your arms

Loneliness has left me searching
For someone to love
Poverty has changed my view
Of what true riches are
Sorrow's opened up my eyes
To see what real joy is
Pain has been the catalyst
To my heart's happiness

-Good Life, Audio Adrenaline

Apparently today is a day to be sad. I don't know why, maybe it was the dream I had last night, but the pain of loss is almost as great today as when it first happened. I was doing better, too. I had actually managed to be somewhat content with where things were, even while wanting with everything in me for them to change, but not today. Today I am sad. While I never stop missing her, I usually don't start off my day on the verge of tears. I don't know what's so different about today, or if it's just completely random. I just hope it isn't a recurring thing, because I'd really prefer not to go through all that again.

Frankly, I don't care that this may sound emotionally needy or whatever; I'm sick and tired of there not being a single other human soul in this world that knows what is going on in my head. So if there is anyone who still reads this, now you know.