Apparently today is a day to be sad. I don't know why, maybe it was the dream I had last night, but the pain of loss is almost as great today as when it first happened. I was doing better, too. I had actually managed to be somewhat content with where things were, even while wanting with everything in me for them to change, but not today. Today I am sad. While I never stop missing her, I usually don't start off my day on the verge of tears. I don't know what's so different about today, or if it's just completely random. I just hope it isn't a recurring thing, because I'd really prefer not to go through all that again.

Frankly, I don't care that this may sound emotionally needy or whatever; I'm sick and tired of there not being a single other human soul in this world that knows what is going on in my head. So if there is anyone who still reads this, now you know.